And it's up in the air

fuckingcare @ 2009-08-24T13:37:00

2009-08-24T17:47:31Z

fuckingcare @ 2009-07-14T13:22:00

2009-07-14T17:49:55Z

none of these are from my camera, they're from alyssa's camera, because my lens broke. enjoy.

fuckingcare @ 2009-07-08T18:32:00

2009-07-09T15:55:44Z

So I have figured out my schedule for fall semester even though I'm not quite sure if I can afford it.

MWF Intro to Alg.
MWF Western Civilization II
MWF Phys Geography
MWF Women and leisure
M Sp.Top: Genocide in 20th to 21st

AND LATELY MY LIFE HAS BEEN AS SUCH:

fuckingcare @ 2009-06-28T19:20:00

2009-06-28T23:32:34Z

My life lately.

2009-05-11T11:56:57Z

fuckingcare @ 2009-04-17T18:11:00

2009-04-18T12:54:58Z

IM AN AUNT!!!!!!!!!!!!

fuckingcare @ 2009-04-01T21:12:00

2009-04-02T01:34:51Z

So a couple of weeks ago me and Melanie went to D.C. for the March on the Pentagon. It was real chill and everyone was really nice, especially that one boy with the army helmet that wanted me to give him my pepper spray so he could get a cop to spray him? haha. I do wish that we would have stayed longer, evidently the hundred or so people we saw while we were there turned into ten thousand in a matter of minutes. but yea, here are photos.

fuckingcare @ 2009-03-18T22:47:00

2009-03-19T02:50:11Z

fuckingcare @ 2009-03-10T14:38:00

2009-03-10T18:51:12Z

Things are looking up!

fuckingcare @ 2009-02-17T12:02:00

2009-02-17T17:06:18Z

fuckingcare @ 2009-02-07T07:23:00

2009-02-07T12:33:47Z

So, here's a real update. School started and despite me having anxiety attacks everyday, I've been doing good in the actual work. Once I get my paycheck on Thursday I can go to the doctor and get on some anti-anxiety pills. Also, my second job at All About the Kids is starting up again and my first show is on Friday the 13th for Slipknot. I don't care about the band as long as we have a minimum payment.
Today, my cousin got invited to go play with some really good people in Halo evidently? I know nothing about this but evidently my fourteen year old cousin is in the top 2% of the world? So we're taking him to Delaware to play and I'm going around to take photos so expect another big photo post.

fuckingcare @ 2009-01-30T14:39:00

2009-01-30T19:47:04Z

fuckingcare @ 2009-01-15T21:07:00

2009-01-16T02:17:47Z

http://action.savedarfur.org/savedarfur/advocacy/flawsandbeaut-314312

click the link and sign the petition. It's for Darfur, something I am very passionate about. No money involved just raising your voice to what is happening.

fuckingcare @ 2008-12-06T21:52:00

2008-12-07T02:54:04Z

SO basically my computer crashed and I lost everything. So now a fresh start for a fresh winter.

fuckingcare @ 2008-10-25T15:55:00

2008-10-25T20:06:22Z

Currently I am applying for something that will take place in January. I don't want to say anything because I'm afraid that I am getting my hopes up too soon, so just cross your fingers for me!

fuckingcare @ 2008-10-21T09:12:00

2008-10-21T13:32:52Z

I just woke up and I'm late for my philosophy class, and I'm not going. I'm just going to wait around for my next class. I'm saving money to go across country next summer. I've already got my route planned, at least generally, and I can't wait until I can go. I haven't taken many photos lately, I'm just not very inspired to do much lately. Anyways, here's a few.

fuckingcare @ 2008-09-18T12:52:00

2008-09-18T17:40:58Z

Okay, here comes a huge update. I've finally gotten my life together and I've never been more relieved, stressed, and proud of myself. I'm going to change my major to Anthropology like I originally planned on. I'm in love with finding out about other cultures. It only fuels the Roma blood that's in my veins and the need to travel. Working two jobs and going to school full time is taking its toll on me, but I can handle it. I've lost weight and now since working at Curves have become healthier and more accepting of my body.
I plan on visiting my sister in Germany next summer if she keeps her house over there. We'll be going for my cousins birthday just the three of us and I am beyond excited. I also plan on going to Shenandoah sometime this month to photograph the leaves changing in the valley. Anyone willing to go with me? If not, oh well, because it would probably be better if I went alone, I can't seem to tolerate anyone for more than a few hours and going to Shenandoah for a whole day would probably drive me insane.
I'm counting down the days until I go into the Peace Corps. Getting to go somewhere and helping people is what I truly want out of life. I also cleaned and reorganized my room. We found old records and a coffee table in the eaves and I put it in my room.

fuckingcare @ 2008-09-06T09:43:00

2008-09-06T13:50:32Z

the more i think about them, the more i forget.

fuckingcare @ 2008-08-22T13:02:00

2008-08-22T17:18:19Z

Awesome. I need $450-$550 in order to get my car fixed. On top of the $250 we already shelled out on my car. My water pump is broken. and now I won't be able to drive it for about two or three weeks until we get the money.

fuckingcare @ 2008-08-21T16:13:00

2008-08-21T20:37:11Z

I dont know why but I am absolutely terrified of being in a relationship, or even going on a date. The funny thing is that I am also terrified of being alone. Knowing that I don't have anyone, romantic or plutonic, completely terrifies me to the point where I will have anxiety attacks. I had one on Tuesday, and I've never been more upset in my life. I have no control anymore. How am I going to go into the Peace Corps when I can't even fucking go to work at the stadium by myself. I used to be so independent, but now the idea of being by myself...its scary.

fuckingcare @ 2008-08-02T19:27:00

2008-08-03T00:13:35Z

lately, my life has been like

fuckingcare @ 2008-08-02T11:57:00

2008-08-02T16:47:07Z

Has anyone else ever had a dream so real that when you woke up you were disappointed that it wasn't real?

yea that happened to me last night, and i'm more disappointed in the fact that I can't remember it then the fact that it wasn't real.

fuckingcare @ 2008-07-29T19:10:00

2008-07-29T23:50:25Z

My flickr ran out of photo space, and I don't want to waste money on a pro account so here's the link.

www.flickr.com/photos/anditsupintheair

fuckingcare @ 2008-07-23T20:15:00

2008-07-24T00:45:20Z

i hate when the wind shifts in the matter of seconds, its like it's running from something.

fuckingcare @ 2008-07-18T13:31:00

2008-07-18T17:54:19Z

I want to go to artscape sometime this weekend. but im being socially awkward and I don't want to ask any of my friends because I don't think its their thing, but I don't want to go by myself either. :/