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none of these are from my camera, they're from alyssa's camera, because my lens broke. enjoy.


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So I have figured out my schedule for fall semester even though I'm not quite sure if I can afford it.

MWF Intro to Alg.
MWF Western Civilization II
MWF Phys Geography
MWF Women and leisure
M Sp.Top: Genocide in 20th to 21st


AND LATELY MY LIFE HAS BEEN AS SUCH:

( LATELY )

IM AN AUNT!!!!!!!!!!!!

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So a couple of weeks ago me and Melanie went to D.C. for the March on the Pentagon. It was real chill and everyone was really nice, especially that one boy with the army helmet that wanted me to give him my pepper spray so he could get a cop to spray him? haha. I do wish that we would have stayed longer, evidently the hundred or so people we saw while we were there turned into ten thousand in a matter of minutes. but yea, here are photos.

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Things are looking up!

So, here's a real update. School started and despite me having anxiety attacks everyday, I've been doing good in the actual work. Once I get my paycheck on Thursday I can go to the doctor and get on some anti-anxiety pills. Also, my second job at All About the Kids is starting up again and my first show is on Friday the 13th for Slipknot. I don't care about the band as long as we have a minimum payment.
Today, my cousin got invited to go play with some really good people in Halo evidently? I know nothing about this but evidently my fourteen year old cousin is in the top 2% of the world? So we're taking him to Delaware to play and I'm going around to take photos so expect another big photo post.

http://action.savedarfur.org/savedarfur/advocacy/flawsandbeaut-314312


click the link and sign the petition. It's for Darfur, something I am very passionate about. No money involved just raising your voice to what is happening.

SO basically my computer crashed and I lost everything. So now a fresh start for a fresh winter.

( hey there )

Currently I am applying for something that will take place in January. I don't want to say anything because I'm afraid that I am getting my hopes up too soon, so just cross your fingers for me!
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I just woke up and I'm late for my philosophy class, and I'm not going. I'm just going to wait around for my next class. I'm saving money to go across country next summer. I've already got my route planned, at least generally, and I can't wait until I can go. I haven't taken many photos lately, I'm just not very inspired to do much lately. Anyways, here's a few.

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Okay, here comes a huge update. I've finally gotten my life together and I've never been more relieved, stressed, and proud of myself. I'm going to change my major to Anthropology like I originally planned on. I'm in love with finding out about other cultures. It only fuels the Roma blood that's in my veins and the need to travel. Working two jobs and going to school full time is taking its toll on me, but I can handle it. I've lost weight and now since working at Curves have become healthier and more accepting of my body.
I plan on visiting my sister in Germany next summer if she keeps her house over there. We'll be going for my cousins birthday just the three of us and I am beyond excited. I also plan on going to Shenandoah sometime this month to photograph the leaves changing in the valley. Anyone willing to go with me? If not, oh well, because it would probably be better if I went alone, I can't seem to tolerate anyone for more than a few hours and going to Shenandoah for a whole day would probably drive me insane.
I'm counting down the days until I go into the Peace Corps. Getting to go somewhere and helping people is what I truly want out of life. I also cleaned and reorganized my room. We found old records and a coffee table in the eaves and I put it in my room.
( Anyway, here are some photos from a while ago.. )

the more i think about them, the more i forget.

Awesome. I need $450-$550 in order to get my car fixed. On top of the $250 we already shelled out on my car. My water pump is broken. and now I won't be able to drive it for about two or three weeks until we get the money.

I dont know why but I am absolutely terrified of being in a relationship, or even going on a date. The funny thing is that I am also terrified of being alone. Knowing that I don't have anyone, romantic or plutonic, completely terrifies me to the point where I will have anxiety attacks. I had one on Tuesday, and I've never been more upset in my life. I have no control anymore. How am I going to go into the Peace Corps when I can't even fucking go to work at the stadium by myself. I used to be so independent, but now the idea of being by myself...its scary.